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***life is a neverending series of do’s and dont’s… and damned if you do, damned if you don’t… when will i have time to update my friendster profile… soon, patience, soon…
New people are coming into your life at a fast and furious pace, and you can’t slow down this flood! This is the start of a very social phase of your life, so get ready to party. You might have a few scheduling headaches, but figuring out which parties to go to is a nice headache to have! If you are in search of a romantic partner, this is a great time to try on a lot of different people for size. And if you’re already in a relationship, this is a great time to rekindle those first-date night flutters!Eye to eye stand winners and losers
hurt by envy, cut by greed
face to face with their own disillusion
the scars of old romances still on their cheeks
and when blow by blow the passion dies sweet little death
just have been lies the memories of gone by time
would still recall the lie
the first cut won’t hurt at all
the second only makes you wonder
the third will have you on your knees
you start bleeding I start screaming
it’s too late the decision is made by fate
time to prove what forever should last
whose feelings are so true as to stand the test
whose demands are so strong as to parry all attempts
and when blow by blow the passion dies sweet little death
just have been lies the memories of gone by time
would still recall the lie
the first cut won’t hurt at all
the second only makes you wonder
the third will have you on your knees
you start bleeding I start screaming
the first cut won’t hurt at all
the second only makes you wonder
the third will have you on your knees
you start bleeding I start screaming
the first cut won’t hurt at all
the second only makes you wonder
the third will have you on your knees
you start bleeding I start screaming
the first cut won’t hurt at all
the second only makes you wonder
the third will leave you on your knees
you start bleeding I start screaming *** an old song, picked up from the internet
today, i went online, thinking — hmmm, i want to update my friendster layout, vincent valentine is probably dying for a make-over… but no, i logged onto my multiply instead… why??? well, why not??? life, it seems that i’m currently plagued with too many choices… haiiiii (theatrical sigh…) to be neurotic and swinging from one place to another… well, i have not forgotten my friendster just yet… will never-ever-ever forget about my friendster… oh well, i remember why i logged in to multiply earlier, i wanted to add to my impulse purchase/s and had just im’ed the shopowner… too many choices, too many choices… when can we have everything and feel absolutely guilt-less??? hmmm…
today, i wanted to update my profile layout, but i never did… well, there’s always a nextime… i happily logged in and just added a new friend — well, an existing, new friend and added a comment on her account instead… Xp
patience, dear prudence, time will unfold and reveal a new layout… hmmm, hopeso… well, whatever, enough said…
You can change the minds of some influential people today — all you have to do is get a little bit of face time with each of them. Use your warm charm and some cold logic to enlighten these people. They don’t know all the facts of the situation — and it’s up to you to educate them. They are letting their own desires cloud their thinking, and you have to show them that by agreeing with you they are helping themselves just as much as the cause you believe in…
*** it’s amusing how the answers sometimes come to you in the form of a game @ the back of a cereal box…
well… ree has been trying to get me to do this… and i’ve been superbusy lately… but after seeing this???!!! well, go on and book me for the next bus! i’m definitely gawn! Xp
i refuse to sleep…my mind, that is refuses to go into hibernate mode… the last few days have been sooooh uneasy for us… i know, i already posted one sad melodrama today, and i cannot fathom how i can post one more… i guess, i am preparing myself for the worst… right now, i am in denial — in denial??? what is there to reject??? it is impending… i will not say the "D" word… and i will go on for the rest of my days as if someone i know has cancer and i have to let go… (and then i think to myself, i don’t know anyone who has cancer… duh!!!) i will chronicle every detail, every bit of blunder, every smile, every wrap-up, every bit of misinformation, every tantrum, every sound of laughter, every nicotine break — i will cherish them for the rest of my days… for 12 months, i felt i was home… where will each one of us "be", after this??? so much for surprises…!!!???
All i know is that, right now, my mind refuses to shut-off, because right now, i think about all the good times, good vibes, shiny, happy, sad, angry, mad, helpful, hopeful, playful people i met along the way… (flashback???)
and i feel content…oh well, whatever, enough said…
i can sleep now…
***DISCLAIMER ***. The events, characters and emotions described within this blog are somewhat fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons living, dead or out of the country is purely unfortunate…
another day… when and why has it started to feel like one daily grind after another?… i used to wake up all excited like it’s christmas morning and each day feels like i’m opening a present each working day?… however, lately, going there had become a task, a burden, like the feeling that Tomas had in one of the chapters in Milan Kundera’s book ("Not even one’s own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels for someone, or with someone. A pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes…- Chapter15 - Lightness & Weight/ From: The Unbearable Lightness of Being)… That book formed me, literally. In life, there are, some things you need to discard because they can be destructive, and some things you tend to realize they somehow, become part of your truth… For 12 blissful months, we were (and i cannot imagine how those who have been there, longer than i have, actually feel???)… it had been my niche, where i felt i belonged, where i felt i was needed, where i felt i could do more… and the people? we were, a kaleidoscope of characters, but no matter, we seemed to have all blended in… we all seemed to fit, each one of us represented a puzzle piece, and each one of us, made the team whole… i guess, i presume, this is how fallen angels feel???
This is how i feel right now, as of the moment… Things can change, and change is always welcome, change is good… But, there is no escaping the thought that today, this is who i be… If you must know, it’s like the feeling that you get when someone breaks up with you… How would you feel if something you depended on, something that you knew has always been stable ground, gets taken away from you?… i cannot deny that we have not known about it… i cannot deny that there are things beyond our control… We own our destinies, but there are some things so concrete, they happen when you least expect it and the beast way to deal with it is that, sometimes, we just need to learn how to go around it… But, this time, i feel that writing around it will never change things… Hopefully though, it will lift off some weight on my chest… Come to think of it, this is how i want my book to end, the book i have been meaning to write about, years from now… this, is the perfect ending - melancholic, dark & unexpected…
i feel though, that @ this point, we will be scattered and fed to the vultures… oh, goddess, i hope not… what a grim idea…
***DISCLAIMER ***. The events, characters and emotions described within this blog are somewhat fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons living, dead or out of the country is purely unfortunate…
i hate you
because i can’t seem to
get rid of his addiction
that slowly grows in my veins
i’m afraid
this might turn into obsession
like the rituals i make
over a cup of coffee
some days it’s hot
iced, or fancy…
mocha or latte,
or just plain black.
But always,
always,
the caffeine buzz must be right
to sustain this pseudo-high
but always, too
that longing.
Not a day goes by
without me and my cup
and lately
you’ve become like that dark liquid
i cannot go without.
And that is why,
i hate you.
… and other stories… coming soon…
